There are times when I have trouble relaxing, to quiet my mind. This past week has been one of those times. This post is going to get a bit personal, and I apologize, but that is where I am right now.
This past Sunday, my cousin Margaret was laid to rest. She was 69 years old, and had suffered debilitating pain and lack of ability to move around from Rheumatoid Arthritis for some time. Margaret was a nurse. In fact, she lived with us while she attended nursing school when we lived in Hannibal, MO. Interesting funny stories another time. There were four of us girls and the older Margaret, plus my Mom and Dad. It was a lively household.
Like most families, mine has unique pieces that fit together in some form or fashion, depending on the day and the picture they are trying to form. Sunday was a good day, and everyone fit together well. We hadn’t seen each other in some time, so families who have been close can frequently pick up where they left off and continue that love and caring. It was very obvious that several of the key pieces are missing. All of my aunts and uncles on that side of the family are gone, as are my grandparents. My mother passed away at 49, her mother at 53. Looking around the church, I wondered which one of us would be next. Our family health legacy reads like a warning label. It always has. Yet it seems, no changes are made, doctors are consulted, medications prescribed, but no one seems to get better. It made me really sad.
I missed the joking among the brothers and sisters and my Mom. The old “remember when” stories. The hymns sang around a piano with all joining in. Card games and softball and visits to the barn to see livestock. So what do we talk about at gatherings now of family? I don’t know about at your house, but around the tables Sunday, it was who had what malady, who was taking new medications, so and so knows what to do to get her cholesterol levels down, but if you don’t do it, does that count? And on and on. Part of me wanted to get up on a table and shout “There is a better way!” but I can’t, not yet. They don’t want to hear the truth yet. So we eat fried chicken, plan a family reunion to get together before we lose anyone else. It is only us cousins now, to keep the families tied together, to remind our children about the family and who those people are on facebook and in old family photo albums.
Until taking this MKMMA Course, the jigsaw puzzles that we work in the metaphysical realm, we seem to work with all the pieces turned the wrong way up. All we see is the brown backing, not the picture that would give us hints. It is not unlike the golden buddha hidden underneath the cement. We know that there is beauty underneath, but for some reason we don’t think, or don’t believe that we have the power to turn the pieces over and achieve a different, better, faster result. We keep working in the old way, using the old blue print.There are many pieces, and they are all shaped differently, and unless placed perfectly, the puzzle will not function as a whole.
This is how I have felt, that some of the pieces have been laid in places where they did not fit, causing a pinch here, or an irritation there. I try to ignore these and move on, but just can’t quite let go all the way. In Part Fourteen, Haanel states in 24:
24. Yet there are many who are not ready to enter into the discipline necessary to think correctly, even though it is evident that wrong thinking has brought failure.
25. Thought is the only reality; conditions are but the outward manifestations; as the thought changes, all outward or material conditions must change in order to be in harmony with their creator, which is thought.
28. This discipline, this change of thought, this mental attitude will not only bring you the material things which are necessary for your highest and best welfare, but will bring health and harmonious conditions generally.
29. If you wish harmonious conditions in your life, you must develop an harmonious mental attitude.
30. Your world without will be a reflection of your wold within.
What is the result of a harmonious mental attitude?
Harmonious conditions in life.
I am certain the opposite is also true.
I chose not to push the buttons on this day, and will sit and concentrate on Harmony that all may be part of the Universal, that we may choose to relate to one another in love rather than competition, or through drama.
Think truly, and thy thoughts Shall the world’s famine feed; Speak truly, and each word of thine Shall be a fruitful seed; Live truly, and thy life shall be A great and noble creed. ~ Horation Bonar
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